Last year I sat in the exact same spot doing the exact say thing. However last year I had my hand on my growing belly and felt as if everything was finally right with the world. I was so happy that I cried. Little did I know that a few short days later that joy and sense that all was right would be completely shattered.
So this Christmas I sit here thinking about what was what could be and what it. It's so hard still to wrap my head around our losses and futures that could have been. I hope that this time next year I am at peace with this topic and can move forward with my life, instead of being stuck in this inbetween.