Thursday, November 26, 2015



For the past year and a half of my life I have had a hard time finding things to be thankful for. My heart had been so broken and bitter that being thankful was far from any emotion I could muster. But today, today I will be thankful for all that I have. 

I have a beautiful girl and an understanding boy who without them I would be lost. Its a perfect day out and the sun is shining bright. 

Maybe just for today I can step into the light and let my worries go. Because whatever life has in store for me in the year to come I know that I am thankful for today for this moment. 

So for this day I am thankful and I will not worry about the tomorrow's to come or the dreams of yesterday. I will be here right now in this day of thanks. 

Saturday, November 21, 2015


My health insurance finally kicked in and I decided it was time to stop beating around the bush and make my doctors appointment for the fetal maternal specialist. I called my obgyn and the number was disconnected. Thought wow that's weird. I found out my doctor suffered a stroke. He is doing ok now but he closed his practice. I started to panic. What about my medical records. And now I have to get a new doctor?!?? Ahhhhhhhhhg

I talked to the specialists office and explained the situation. They said I have to have a referral to come see them...... So I finally decided on a new doctor. I called their office and explained the situation and that I needed to see a specialist. They said they could not get my records!!!! Wtf!??? But the receptionist said she had heard that their was a note on the fort of my doctors office with directions on how to get records. 

She was right I found a note with an address to write to to get records. So hopefully I can get my records soon. And further more hopefully my new doctor will send me to the specialist. 

It's so frustrating to finally have insurance and feel ready to open that box only to have it road blocked again. Argggg