Announcements .....left and right

I'm sure it is because I am more sensitive to the subject now but I feel like baby announcements are popping up all the time!! I have never been a jealous person but now I feel that big green monster boiling up all the time. I very often cry looking at the joy of my friends so blissful and happy announcing their pregnancies without any knowledge of the dark side. I'm so jealous! I should be very pregnant by now or have a cute little baby on my lap. Why can't that be my family posting pictures of little shoes and ultrasounds. Having gender reveal parties and celebrations for this new life. Instead I sit here trying desperately to manage my feelings and be happy for them that they don't have to sit on the dark side. I hope that some day I can find myself again and this ghost of a person I have become can take a hike.