I have not really been myself since our first loss and I have felt so lost.
We were discussing me coming back to our workout group. I was telling her that I just feel so unmotivated. I used to have great motivation. Ran 5 miles a day went to the gym. Ate super healthy. Now I just can't bring myself to even go for a walk.
She said she felt the same way after she lost her baby. Explained how her hormones had been so wacky and she could see so much of the same in me.
I fell apart. How can this still be such a sore subject? How has this affected my life sooo much. Blah.